Is there a devotee’s pangs of separation?

If my answer is an Yes, I would be wrong, If my answer is a no- I still would be wrong.But so many things have changed in the past and I  had promised to become a devotee for kannan’s sake.Not that I loathe the decision. In fact that was his way to bring me into his fold.But I only fear my conscience as to how far I am true to my promise.I have a profession, I have a family, I have my kannan too.when the balance trips,my dear ones are startled.But I know that he takes care of me with my worries.sometimes my soul gets startled when  I feel that I  veer out of my path.I am no different person. I am one among others , with deceit, loathe, passion, love and desires, but with some new found love towards kannan.The reason behind this maybe because that  I started reading some 4000 verses in tamil.The mysticism in those poems completely captivated my heart, especially the 1000 by Nammazhwar..

So to answer the question posed by Kpartha ( Ah, nice symbolism-I mean the name)I'll get the help from nammazhwar's verses..( and hide behind him)

நெறிகாட்டி நீக்குதியோ? நின்பால் கருமா
முறிமேனி காட்டுதியோ? மேனாள்- அறியோமை
என் செய்வான் எண்ணினாய்? கண்ணனே! ஈதுரையாய்
என் செய்தால் என்படோம் யாம்?

Ignorant  now I am, ignorant I was in days past

What maketh me of myself ,  my dear lord?

showing  thine path ,will you part?

Else will you wait, to behold my hand?

Whatever be your design, I dither not

Abandoned too , I’ll track thy path..

Nammazhwar.

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These are verily good for my heart

These are to be frowned by the soul

These are good and bad, I know

You fit myself into  these, my lord

Without thy designs and your word

How am I to know the chaff?

Nammazhwar