I can’t recollect my past..
When my soul has walked many forms
I’m ignorant of my future...
And my worthiness to face you
But God, Am I happy at present?
'cos I hurry to slowdown, and slothful for my wants..
I taste and shun, I play and regret
I seek you and move away
I think I’m awake when I am asleep
And close my eyes shut tight
Thinking that I am in deep sleep..
Sheepishly admit that I try fooling you
Like the cattle straying away far into the woods
lingering thoughts that you would follow me..
till the end....
somehow I am reminded of a photo and a comment...
I forgot my face dear lord,
for I've lost this innocence and smile.
Truthful with secrets cornered,
friendly with malice covered,
Pious, yet dripping venom.
whence you shall pull out my mask,
I wouldn't resent, but silently submit
covering my face and pleading mercy
(There was a temple going spree in our family... and crowded they were in this vacation season..that I felt nothing in front of the sanctum.. any ways I enjoyed staying with all family..)